Depression or psychic abilities?

I've always had encounters but through the years I've been diagnosed with bi polar depression a sleeping disorder when I read your summary on the first page a lot of it made sense and I really just want answers. I mean I don't know what to do. I know I'm not depressed or bi polar but I cant really sleep that much and when I do I feel terrible or have terrible nightmares so if you could please get back to me I would greatly appreciate it.

C

Dear C,

You mention your challenges right now but you haven't really mentioned anything psychic going on. What sort of psychic symptoms do you have? Do the dreams or nightmares (heaven forbid) come true?

Remember that while you may be psychic, that does not mean you are not also depressed or bipolar. People with bipolar are among the most sensitive psychics I know. Bipolar disorder seems to come along with great psychic and creative talent. There is no shame in being depressed, either. I was depressed for over 30 years of my life before I found a class that helped me change things for the better. I too have sleeping disorders - more than one! And they can contribute to depression.

I have to make the obligatory disclaimers first before I tell you anything about being psychic: Listen to your parents and doctor. Don't go off any medications.

Now that that's out of the way ... the next step for you is to learn some sort of grounding mediation. See the meditations on the Living With Your Psychic Gifts web page. Do these exercises twice a day, in addition to whatever medical treatments you are taking. It will take a while for the meditations to make a difference.

Look for books by Caroline Myss - my favorite is "Why People Don't Heal". I recommend an amazing book by James Roswell Quinn called "Controlling Others for Love and Profit" ("If you believe that, then you better wake up. Controlling others is not the solution - It is the problem."). Don't be thrown off by the title ... it was originally going to be called "The Love-Based Leader". I edited the first edition. If you want faster results, I often recommend a class to people who approach me as you have - the cost may seem prohibitive, but for me, it completely changed my life, and was worth a thousand times what it cost. If your parents like the idea, contact these people: http://www.lifestreamrochester.com/ and ask them when the next "Basic" is being held. The class is not about psychic development - it's a "life skills" class, all the things they should teach you in school, but don't.

Clairsentience - Turn it off? (2)

I don't want this, it's made my life hell, I have been ostracized by my peers, no one believes me, or they believe me and just believe I'm nuts. I can't control it. It won't just appear on command, so it makes me look even more nuts. Depression seems to play a factor in this, so does stress. I will give you that. It seems to hit hardest when I feel like crap or I'm really stressed.

I have studied meditation, the tarot, and even astrology, a friend of mine recommended them because of the feelings I was having, they aren't really visions, they are more like feelings. They only seemed to make the stupors last longer and become audible, they make them worse. I have no control what so ever.

I'm so ashamed, my priest says im going crazy too, he thinks I should see a dr.

I am alone...

You are not alone. I went through the exact same thing, and I have gotten many many letters over the years, just like yours. It's heartbreaking to me to read your pain and know I cannot provide the answer you are hoping for, but I don't believe you are crazy, either. You are just a hyper-sensitive empath living in an unsympathetic situation.

I don't have any real control over my visions or impressions either. I have come to accept that too. They come when they do. The more journaling I have done though, the more the evidence has mounted up that what I sense is real, and the more I am able to tell the difference between fearful thoughts, wishful thinking and a real intuition.

One thing that has made a huge difference to my happiness is that I don't try to convince anyone else that it is real anymore ... not even you. I don't care if you believe me that my gift is real or not. What matters is that I believe it. If you are still doubting yourself, it is no wonder you are unhappy. Start journaling and meditating. You will benefit from it in ways you can't begin to imagine.

Some of my friends are doubters too ... but you know what? I don't care! Those who truly love me, love me anyway, and those who are mean about it ... well, I weeded them out of my life a long time ago. Life is too short to have closed-minded, fear-based people around me. That includes family in my case. The only one I really talk to much is my mother. That may sound sad, but the truth is I never had much in common with the rest of them anyway. I have a new circle of friends now who are the most loving and supporting people I could hope for, and I am the happiest I have ever been. When I look back, the truth is I am better off without some of those people in my life.

I felt strongly from the beginning that depression is a factor in your situation, and the best thing I did for depression was taking The QuinnTessential Experience classes. If you don't feel that is for you, and you cannot get to Toronto, then the next best thing is to go see your doctor and see if you can get a referral to a cognitive therapist. That's the closest thing in traditional medicine to what they teach at The QuinnTessential Experience. Watch the movie "The Secret". There are some clues in there as well. I think you are not "crazy" if you are just depressed. I think your priest is probably trying to get you to get help for your depression, but unless he actually used that word, then you are projecting your judgments onto him. I'd like to give him the benefit of the doubt.

I don't understand why you feel ashamed. What have you done to be ashamed of? If in the rare event you do have some sort of mental illness (I am not a psychiatrist but you sound sane to me), then that is not your fault. Talk it over with your doctor, he or she will be able to see if you need intervention. If you don't have a mental illness, then all you are guilty of being is sensitive and gifted! Cut yourself a break. It's bad enough that other people have been unsupportive, you don't need to put yourself down as well.

I do think you should avoid Tarot or astrology for now. It will open you up more, when what you need to do is ground yourself. Focus your energy on physical activity. Meditate, learn how to ground yourself. Pray. Once you get to the stage where you can accept this, that is the time to broaden your studies.

Brandi